Stop for a moment, will you?
(Photo: Author)
This terrible vacuum
An indefinable fatigue
I cannot explain.
I am familiar to such
Emotional responses
Yet
Why does it feel
So unusually painful
Each and every time?
Why is it too hard to find
The will to live?
Life feels like a heavy stone
Tied to my feet —
And I am supposed to drag this
Overwhelming heaviness
Till eternity.
I know,
Grass is not greener on the other side.
But, at least I can beg to you —
Save me from this.
Make me a white feather,
Or a small brown leaf,
And help me float
As aimlessly as I please.
I long to speak
But words retreat from my lips
Like seawaves
Unwilling to touch your skin.
But, if you stop for a moment,
And look through me
I have spread my heart for you
To read.
This game of loss and gain
I reject this life.
I breathe, I surrender.
Tell me, it is okay to only exist.
